The weeks have been...

in a nutshell, hellashish. I've done it to myself really. I'm trying to become adjusted to being an 'employee' at a company that I was only temping with before. I'm becoming the mom who helps out with my daughters school way more than I have time for. I am putting pressure on myself to do all these things before the holidays and the truth is that I just don't have an organized cell structure in my body to pull all this off.

I believe, and I have believed this for some time now, that I am the worlds worst housekeeper. I literally SUCK at it. And I am not kidding. I can scrub with the best of them, but my house never changes. I think I have grown to accept that. But I don't like it. And I don't like that I have accepted that.

I am sad and glad that the art show was canceled today. Why? Because I had CRAP to show and because I just am TOO tired to pull a double. I am glad that I don't do this for a living.

Ok... so listing my problems might help me come to a conclusion about how to deal with everything because my little brain is making it impossible for me to not think about it.

Nah... who was I kidding.

Next weekend is the big turkey day and I am not jumping up and down for joy. I have some things I want to get done that day and would rather do them than go eat with people I'm not sure I want to spend all that much time with .

Random:
I want to open a cupcake shop and sell cool drinks and cupcakes. I found a place but don't have the balls to call. Besides I can't do that, I might be moving soon.

Oh and that is another thing! I have the 'going back to school' dilema. I checked out Phoenix Online and they have the degree that I want to take it is like $475 a credit hour, but it is online and it is only one class at a time and I can have it completed in like 2 years. Well... my current company will pay for it and that is a sweet deal, but that means I have to stay in Florida YUCK. What to do. I know what I am supposed to do, but that isn't what I want to do. I want to move. Hate it here, but the chances or luck that I would find getting a job with a company that pays me as much as this one does with all the benefits is almost nill, without a degree. Great I have just committed myself to this place haven't I. Can I see beyond, I better!

K, gotta go.