I feel blah...

Ever felt that way?

Today is a blah day for me. Having ADHD as an adult sucks. The reason why I feel blah is because I am overwhelmed. In my head. I have so many things going on that I can't concentrate on anything. I can't even find a way to break it down. I thought it would help if I opened up the house but because there is a new development of houses going up, there is a lot of outside noise. This just adds to my head noise. And of course my craft table is a mess. I should really just clean up. Do something, and be done with it. That will help clear my head.

The other thing is that I don't know what to do about our housing. I'm being sort of selfish here. But on the other hand we really have to start thinking about stuff. I mean I might get laid off... while this could most definetly be a blessing in disguise, it certainly doesn't help our housing situation. And I'm not rational or logical in my thinking. We live in a really nice house that has a lot of potential. We could buy the house we are leasing, but we might not be able to afford it in 2 years if I get laid off and we might not be able to sell it because I won't be the only one to get laid off. However, it is so close to my daughters school she can walk or ride her bike. And her school is AMAZING. We don't want her to go anywhere else. Then there is the other issue of what if's. I can't afford to be this responsible, I'm crap at it.

So needless to say I can't concentrate on one thing, the studio is a mishmess and I need to get my act together :)

Ciao bellas.