Struggling

I'm struggling to keep my head afloat. To stop thinking in terms of my frustration but of my ultimate goal.

My job is really starting to wear on me. There are certain aspects of my job that I love but a lot more that I seem to hate. I'm not going to get into it right now, but I will say that I am just not happy.

I've been stuck in this place for way too long. I've been feeling incredibly depressed, or as my friend Tonya says, I've got the blahs.

I'm feeling fat and ugly. I want to, need to get refreshed. I want to go and soak and be happy and feel good and have fun and feel like I'm working towards something. But I just feel like I'm passing time.

hold that thought had a brain fart and have to research something

Ok, feeling the blahs again ANd I'm feeling sick!!

ciao