It's time to say good bye

I'm pretty intro-spective and self-analyzing. If you've been a blog-reader of mine, you'll know that I self-indulge on myself a lot. Basically I'm not happy in my life and I do certain things to correct it. Sometimes I struggle because I want something but I want to keep something else and I know I have to give up one for the other.

One of those things is destructive relationships. It is time to say good-bye to one, once and for all. It is hard because I always check up on her, thinking I will know what to say when the time is right. I'll lay it all out on the table and tell her to accept it, when I know in my heart that will never happen because I will never tell her. Not that I'm chicken, I'm not. I can be the most blunt person you know, I speak without thinking A LOT. I let my moral compass do a lot of the talking. But I suppose there comes a time when you have expected to change and they don't. And then you have to ask why and realize it was because the change was for you, not them. We always know that those people could be so much more if they just didn't...<___> fill in the blank.

The truth is, it isn't for me to decide which path a person is supposed to follow. And even though I have strong convictions that contradict their life, it is their life and I must respect it or remove myself.

I think there are certain situations in which people need to stand up for themselves. And I have done that before, I am also about to do it again. But, there are also situations that require us to just walk away. And so...

Goodbye Tonya.

-J.