Oh my Cluttered Heart!

House and Home and Mind. All 3 cluttered.

I am in the process of rearranging my house and moving my daughter out of her 10 X 10 room into a 9 X 8 room. Why? Because I love her :) Her big room has become to cluttered, she has too much space and no air. For some reason the air conditioning has quit in her room. I know this is past summer, but we felt it was time for a change. So, I painted the room especially for her and arranged it to her liking and we are happy with it. We still have a few things let to do, but she and I are focusing on that together.

My other venture was to move my office so that she could have this new space. Well now my office is sitting in a big cluttered pile in my living room. I am not normally one to be specific about where I want things or how I want to do things, but for this project I am. Just as I painted my daughter's room, so I must paint my new 'studio'. It is going to be a curry yellow in semi-gloss. I am quite excited. I was inspired to get this color on the walls from here. So, now that my daughter's room is 90% finished, I will be ready to paint my new office. Which I am totally excited about.

I have always been an independent creature. Drifting away for days to places that I don't tell anyone about. Nowadays I feel like I never get any time to myself and I have to draw a map to where I am and where I will be so that everyone doesn't freak out when they can't find me. Which is probably why I still don't have a mobile phone. But now that my husband has recieved his work visa and is working - I have time to myself! I will have time to actually create! I can have my own space where I can lock the door and no one will bother me. I love my family to death. But I love my free time also, and I think that is what keeps me sane.

But all this clutter is making me feel uneasy. I can't even sleep through the night. Even this morning I was up at 4am. I'm NEVER up and 4 am. It is very unnerving.

In my heart I know my clutter, and my family's clutter is keeping us from doing so much. I checked out a book from the library on clearing clutter and feng shui and how clearing out helps with things like anxiety and peace. Something that we all need. So over the next few months, that is what I will be doing. Along with trying to get the family cleared out as well. I think good things will happen when we clear. But for now, I will have to help my chi by constantly being aware of my negative thoughts. Especially the ones I am having now.