Only because my stomach is bothering me. I think I ate too much grease last night at this bar-b-que restaurant. Anyway, been thinking about some things and have been able to finally come to some conclusion last night about where I want to go in my life.
Geesh, 29 doesn't really seem so old but I will be 30 shortly. Well by December. Will I be happy with the last 30 years of my life? Probably, but am I statisfied?
A huge flaw I have, that though I try my damnest not to conform, that I always end up not doing something because people will think less of me for it. Anyway, I got so sidetracked.
There are certain stipulations for me to accomplish certain things in my life, one is the degree of choice. I am almost 30 and have not finished college. Nice. But because what I want to do isn't what others in my life wanted me to do, so I doubted myself and yadda yadda yadda here we are almost 10 years later!
Now I am trying to convince myself that I CAN and WILL do this. Even if it has to come from my own pocket! I am TIRED of being something that I don't want to be. I want to be a designer. I feel like I have an eye for it and I have been doing it in my spare time for years. I would like to convince my boss also that it is beneficial to the company, but when she here's things like BFA - she roles her eyes and I get the feeling that she doesn't believe that those are REAL degrees. Well her definition. So she is going to take some convincing. I am planning on starting back to school this fall. Whether my company pays for it or not.
Ok, gotta get dressed now. Big presentation to give today...
Ciao Ciao
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